Change

It is commonly accepted that change is the only constant. I don't know who said it first, but they were right.

Some changes are like geological shifts and evolution. Others are fast, like a pitstop in F1 racing.

These past few months have definitely felt like a pitstop. Deciding to change jobs and move in a matter of weeks and then finding a new place and moving within just one more week has left my head spinning! It is now four months down the line. The new job is settling in nicely and the new place is starting to feel cozy and I finally have time to reflect.

Funny thing is...

I don't think the changes have come and gone. The restlessness has not left me. The sense of impending shifts is still there. Now, at the moment, it is just a vague niggle at the back of my consciousness. I don't know what shape this next change will take, whether it be careerwise, homewise or otherwise, but I have a sense of it... and it's exciting!

See, this is the interesting part. I like my comfort zone as much as the next girl. It is not usual for me to want to change. I always buy the same brands and shop at the same shops. I have a favourite restaurant and a favourite author. I always eat my cereal with hot milk and leave my sweet potatoes for last. But right now... I don't know... There is something at the edge of my thinking, somewhere between second and third thoughts (see "A Hat Full of Sky"), something telling me not to relax and get comfortable.

Should I be worried? Am I being fanciful? Am I being overly hopeful? I don't know.

Change is the only constant, so let's see what happens next!

Ubi caritas, et amor, Deus ibi est.

Where love is, and compassion, there is God. Or is it, where God is, there is love and compassion? Which comes first? Do our loving actions call God to be present, or does God's presence make us loving and compassionate? Option A: Love first. This means that we are capable of love without God's help and He arrives to bless our loving actions - give us a pat on the back, so to speak. So, the burden for making the world a better place is ours. Option B: God first. God is omnipresent, according to most Christians, and He is love, so love is omnipresent. Ok. So, why do we read of people like Kony and places like Sudan, where the lack of love and compassion is so clear and sickening? Is the burden for making the world a better place God's and He has decided to take the day off? Or is it Option C? Knowing God and knowing love is not a human thing at all and it is impossible for us to do so without Him. So, unless we surrender to Him and His love, humans will not know His love. Therefore, there will be places and people who make it look like He is absent, because they are trying to run the show their way. And there are places and people who are conduits for His love and make it visible to others, because they have surrendered to Him and serve His kingdom. Thus, His kingdom comes on Earth as it is in Heaven? So, the burden for making the world a better place is God's, but he chooses to use human servants. I am leaning towards option C. Whether I'm right, I don't know. Whether others choose differently, I don't really care. I know one thing: I choose love.